People leave the good in search of finding something better. But sometimes they are out of luck and find something somewhat worse. They are searching for what they already had right in front of them without even realizing. But it’s too late to reverse anything. People take things for granted way too much. You always want what you can’t have. 

I think I had way too much fun last week. All I did was hang out with my guy friends and get messed up everyday. I really let myself go last week. But I kind of needed it. I needed to not give a fuck for a bit and just simply have fun. That’s the only time I get to distract my thoughts and feelings even though it isn’t the healthy way. All I know is, I had a good time forgetting about everything. But unfortunately, I am coming to the realization that you can’t run away from your problems. It’ll only come back to screw you up.

I want to experience love like Chuck and Blair. Even when times are extremely hopeless, one always fights for the other. They do fucked up things to each other. They hurt each other and do things behind each other’s back but they are always honest with each other afterwards. Every stupid thing that they do is out of love. Even with all the shit that they go through, they always know at the end of the day who they truly love. They can try to deny it and resist all feelings but they both know that they need each other. “I never thought it was possible to love someone too much, but maybe it is.” -Blair.
Maybe it is.